About Us
Recovery, education, and practical tools for people who want to break the cycle.
I'm Dutch Deblouw.
My history includes abuse and a struggle with pornography. It also includes an arrest that could have carried consequences for the rest of my life.
I came through that experience without a lifetime criminal record. But realizing how close I had come to that outcome stayed with me.
Some details of my story will remain private. What I want to share is why it matters to me now: I don't want other men to travel that same road. I want them to reach for help before the consequences force them to.
Why XXXKills exists
XXXKills brings together practical tools, personal writing, and places to find support. The aim is to help people understand their patterns, take a useful next step, and find support beyond this website.